Dr. Mark Rutland is one of my favorite preachers. On his current podcast, he talked about his first pastoral appointment. He was twenty-two. “They should not give a driver’s license to a 22-year-old. They sure shouldn’t give a church to a 22-year-old boy.”
I was on the treadmill with my ear buds listening to Rutland’s podcast. Things got real personal. I was also twenty-two when I began preaching each week at the same church. I probably proved his contention.
Several years later, an acquaintance who established a school of religion at a Big-Ten school talked to me about going back to school. With two small kids, we considered 6 or 7 years in school. “How old you going to be if you spend six years at University and Seminary?” He asked. “How old you going to be if you don’t?” So, I enrolled where the school would accept some of my Bible College credits and was appointed to a 2-point charge.
It was the late 60s. Great time to be in college! Speakers at the weekly assembly were testing out the F-word. (They succeeded. It sounds like it is the most important and most often publicly used word in the English language.) Riots in Iowa cities and assassinations in America. I was confronted with new thoughts in sociology classes; ideas that I had ignored, diminished, or didn’t bother with. One was about having an “inner-child.”
I’m currently reading Lewis Howes’ book on Mindsets.1 He tells of riding in an Uber and listening to the female driver’s story of abuse and trauma. “The physical evidence of her past still remained, but the energy she radiated was full of positivity and kindness.”
She said, “It doesn’t hurt anymore. I’ve learned how to heal it and turn the pain into wisdom.”
Howes assesses the story: “She has taken intentional action to bring the cycle of trauma to an end.” Then he adds, “Whatever your trauma—and we all have past trauma of some sort—if left unhealed, it will direct your future too. Trauma perpetuates trauma. To stop the cycle, you have to let your adult self make the decisions instead of the younger, wounded self.” (Page 132)
Howes observes, “Until I did the healing work my inner child needed, I ended up…feeling shamed and wronged.” Two paragraphs later he says, “Only when I started to heal my inner child and the trauma from my past did I finally start to feel like I was acting authentically as my true self.” (Page 133)
“I acknowledged that child part of myself, I felt capable of becoming a new person. Now when I am faced with a trigger, I can say those unhealthy behaviors are not who I am anymore.”
Dr. Karyn Purvis has a descriptive phrase for kids who grew in a difficult atmosphere: “Kids from hard places.” For example, the abandoned, assaulted, abused, alienated, attacked. Kids from hard places would also include life events or experiences that were mis-interpreted and carried into adulthood.
“Experiences can be both formative and deformative. Trauma (real or mis-interpreted) disrupts helpful neural patterns and creates unhelpful ones. Those disruptions produce counterproductive coping strategies and behaviors.”2
Michael Hyatt and daughter Megan in their Mind Your Mindset 3 nail this down:
“Our strategies…will always be based on our underlying story about our situation. So to create an effective strategy, we must have an accurate understanding of reality. Stories drive strategies and strategies drive results.” (p.26)
Helpful, healthy, successful—or not!
“If we want better results, we will have to tell ourselves better stories” (Hyatt).
I’ve been thinking about my “inner child”—did it ever grow up, or did it accompany me into my golden years? For sure, some of the fears, self-concepts, emotional responses were formed in grade school and then teen years brought a second iteration and a second litter.
The Uber driver’s statement, “I learned how to heal it…” raises questions. And Howes’ statement, “Until I did the healing work my inner child needed….” Are those New Age statements or self-help hopes? If your spiritual tradition included or includes prayers for healing, altar calls, healing evangelists, can you remember or imagine being encouraged to heal your inner child? Is that possible? Does redemption reach that far?
I began the next paragraph with “Brief, shorthand, foundational comments:” I ended with what looked like Augustine’s Confessions. Suffice it to say when people talk about “healing my inner child,” that is soul work, not spirit-work. The Father, Son, Holy Spirit are involved to the degree we invite them. We individuals have responsibility for soul-care. When Apostle Paul says, “…all things become new,” (2 Corinthians 5:17), does he mean instantly, immediately and forever? For me, wounds, bad habits, trauma, ignorance did not change completely and immediately. I used those characteristics to interpret my world and to build coping mechanisms.
“…being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion” (Philippians 1:6, NIV).
God wants us whole—moving toward His projected destiny for us, but He won’t water the roots.
We could talk a while about self-healing in Jesus’ authority. “Doing the healing work,” in my view, is planting roots of a desired life. What are the character traits—your brand—you do not possess or project, but desire? The books and articles I list all contain suggested ways to change. A common habit is to read, but not “do the work.”
Dr. Dweck’s research is built around the two mindsets: The Fixed Mindset and The Growth Mindset. In the link below, an article about Dweck’s study concludes with “How to Change a fixed mindset.” It is a very helpful place to start.
https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-a-mindset-2795025
I’ve been thinking about writing, The Caleb Initiative. God said about the 85-year-old,
“…my servant Caleb has a different spirit and follows me wholeheartedly” (Numbers 14:24).
©D. Dean Benton
RESOURCES
1The Greatness Mindset, Lewis Howes, (Hayhouse, Inc Publishers) ©2023
2Mind Your Mindset, Michael Hyatt & Megan Hyatt Miller, (Baker Books) © 2023